Reenie's Ramblings

I watched them walk off together with a lump in my throat. They look so cute in their new backpacks, new shoes and clothes.  There is an excitement about the first day of school that isn't like anything else. (They woke up early and ready for the first day before my alarm had a chance to yell at me!) While a lot of Mothers are excited for this day, when they have peace and quiet, I dread it. I am so happy and excited for them but there is this emotion Im not sure how to describe. Its hard to watch my kids become independent.  Its hard to let them go, to grow up.   Its not that I don't want them to, (I'd be worried if they didn't) its just that moments like today, the first day of school, make me realize the saying "Time Flies" is not just a saying.  Its a fact.  They were feeling so "grown up" today it breaks my heart and makes me smile all at the same time! I struggle with finding peace with letting them stay in the care of someone else

Don't Give Up!  Its about to get SO GOOD! When we first got married, I was literally head over heals!  Our first year of marriage was a honeymoon.  So many firsts.  It was an absolute thrill simply to be his wife.... I couldn't understand how people could EVER divorce or separate!  Then one day, I got it.  I understood.  I realized in that moment "This is when most people leave". We hadn't even reached our 3rd anniversary. I felt we were just roommates not connected in any other way. I was miserable. I was going to leave. I still loved him, but I was so unhappy, so frustrated and so DONE. I am beyond thankful our story ends differently. While I am far from a marriage expert, we will be celebrating 11 years this month and I am thankful every day for the man at my side, my partner, my friend, lover.... my husband. I wish every young couple would read this or at least have a good chat with someone who will tell them this: There WILL come a ti