Reenie's Ramblings

I was supposed to be leaving for Spain this Wednesday. I planned this trip for almost a year, had it mostly paid for, including spending money. We had food lover's tours in Madrid and Barcelona, a lovely 2 night stay with our dear friends in Cordoba... A trip of fellowship, history, culture, great food, architecture...everything I love to experience when travelling, but we canceled it. It's the right thing to do, and even though we have lost a good portion of our money doing it, I KNOW, it is the right thing to do. The amount we got back is just enough to sneak our babies away to a warmer, relaxing place. I cannot leave my kids right now and they can't handle us being gone either. I hope this R&R will help reset things for us. I need to not have crushing pain anymore. I need to feel whole again and I need to MOVE ON! I need to breathe. I don't fully understand WHY my body has broken down over this incident, but I do know it's not is