Reenie's Ramblings

This photo is a picture of little people my daughter made representing our family including our cat. Throughout this journey of searching for my biological mother, beginning communication with her, I never want to lose sight of the fact I already have an incredible, beautiful little family that loves me so much.   My kids have my heart and I am thankful every day that I get to be their mama.  Any potential relationship gained from this experience is bonus.  I am not looking to replace anything or anyone..... I have so much already.   I do hope that whomever is willing to get to know me from my biological family, gets to know and experience the fact that I have so much heart and so much love to share. There are many things to consider when going down a path like this one.  I hope for those reading who are in similar shoes as me, that you consider it all. My parents who raised me will always be my parents.  They wanted me.  Chose m...

I've always known I was adopted. I am so thankful for this because it saved me from a lot of struggle throughout my childhood.  I will forever be grateful to my parents for being up front about that. Here's my little story.  My parents were told they couldn't have children so they started an adoption journey.... they planned to save for a while but then I was born and suddenly they had a daughter!  A few months later, they discovered my mom was pregnant!  My sister and I are 14 months apart. I never once felt resentment to being adopted or hurt and rejected by my birth Mom.  I always had a sense that it was exactly what was supposed to be.   Even still.... throughout the years, I felt a yearning to know her. As a child I would sometimes lay awake at night, wondering about my birth mom.  Did she think about me? When my birthday happened every year, I always wondered if she was thinking of me that day. Was she happy?  Did I have half sibli...