Reenie's Ramblings

I have been convicted a little while ago regarding how to let people we love know how much we appreciated them. I was at a funeral. It hit me, we usually only share what people mean to us when they are gone. We share how their life has impacted us AFTER they have already passed. I felt strongly that we need to tell people while they are ALIVE! There are moments when we struggle, and sometimes knowing that our life has impacted another, enriched another, strengthened another, helps us find courage to continue. I have written a few blogs for a few people already and want to take some time for a blog about Emily. While she is one I tell how much I appreciate and often, I don't think she truly understands the impact her friendship has on my life. Have you ever met someone who just saw you?  Like really SAW you. From the first time we met and got to know each other (we were pre-teen) it's like my soul saw hers and recognized it.  I don't know how else to say ...

Patience is a virtue. It says so in the Bible. My lack of patience is a constant reminder of my lack of virtue. Learning to wait. Wait for the right timing to make a change. Wait for the correct answer to come. Waiting for results. Waiting for clear direction. These are all things my nature fights against. Hard. I like to get things done. Swiftly. Promptly. I like answers. Immediately. Currently there is an experience in front of me that is requiring patience. (Well, patience if I am to proceed correctly, and I want to do this part right) I am struggling. I have known many patient people in my life and am in awe of them as I witness what patience does for them. I have experienced being patient and realizing the beautiful results from it. But it's still a battle. One I am willing to fight. If you struggle with patience, you are not alone. My desire is to simply: Patiently Continue....

Someone said to me recently "You inspire me, all you have endured in your life and you still love those who have hurt you..." I was taken aback as I don't think of someone worthy of inspiring anyone else. It has caused some reflection on how I live. I have been extremely reflective on my adoption reunion experience lately, partially as I have been matched to other family members through DNA who have reached out to me. And partially because of Mother's Day. Here's what has been on my heart: We can endure difficult experiences, intense loss and tragedy in our lives. It's okay to feel the sorrow and grieve for a time. To dwell on it for the rest of our lives is not. I am at a place where I am feeling a softening towards birthmom again and a desire to understand how to truly forgive. Life has handed me a rough set of cards at times and this is not just referring to birth mom experience or the experience of being adopted. There have been other eve...

I have had multiple say it is difficult to read my story as you have to go out of order for each blog post. I have copied and pasted each blog from my adoptions story and am posting them in one long blog. There may come a day soon when I get my whole story written, but that day is not today. FINDING MY BIRTH MOM PART 1: I've always known I was adopted.  I am so thankful for this because it saved me from a lot of struggle throughout my childhood.   I will forever be grateful to my parents for being up front about that. Here's my little story.   My parents were told they couldn't have children so they started an adoption journey. They were given the call about a baby girl a few months later and they had a daughter.   A few months after that, they discovered my mom was pregnant with my sister.   My sister and I are 14 months apart. Throughout the last years, I've attempted to find my birth mother. Posting on every message boa...